| So long and thanks for all the fish |
[Mar. 12th, 2006|12:37 am] |
Okay. New journal established - go looking at ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) delfeir for everything else that I say on LJ. This personal journal was something that I'm not so proud of... it's difficult to control emotions, but for the most part, this thing was just way too emo or random or stupid. I'm trying to change my life around again, and so I don't want this to stay here as a reminder - hence I'm replacing it.
This doesn't mean I'm becoming an introvert away from you all. If you want to read what I write and what I say still, then by all means go ahead and friend delfeir. I'd appreciate it, I really would. But if you're finished in your contact with me, or whatever, then that's fine too. Thanks for all the good times that were had regardless of wherever else anyone ends up.
So yes. See any of you who add me once I jump ship. Love and Dragons to you all. |
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[Mar. 11th, 2006|04:03 pm] |
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| |  determined | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Thrillseekers - Synaesthesia | ] |
I no longer like this journal of mine. It helps to let my emotions out during bad times, but it annoys me doing it here. A lot of my friends on my FL have moved on to various other things, and I've moved on as well. I don't get comments anymore, not that it really matters, but it still means that this isn't necessary. I'll be deleting it.
I'm not leaving LJ entirely, however - I'm creating a new one soon enough for a different use. That will be less about me and more of a general rant thing that I'm doing with a bunch of friends, where we share our views on society and so on with the rest of the world. Because we're all cynics and we like doing that kind of stuff. It's good writing material.
So. I'll put one final post up later, when I've created my new LJ. It'll have that link, and the link to my friend who started the whole idea. Feel free to friend that one if you're interested - I might still put my writing up on it as well.
Comment if you will, friend if you will, but if you don't, I did enjoy the times we had. |
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[Mar. 7th, 2006|03:47 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  accomplished | ] |
| [ | music |
| | E.S. Posthumus - Pompeii | ] |
THINGS I HAVE LEARNT ABOUT TRYING TO DO SCHOOLWORK
-Most of the problems I have are psychosomatic.
-Nonetheless, it's still a struggle even when I can push that aside to focus because I'm so damn tired.
-Sadly, this doesn't seem to change even when I sleep for like 12 hours.
-My medicine is making me sneeze. A lot. I don't like this.
-Regardless of all this, I'm still happy when I realise that it's not important and not worth stressing about.
-So instead of miserably plowing forward, do what I can and then play Final Fantasy 9. Much better alternative. May not win me any more marks, but it will damn well stop me from slinking back into depression.
That's all, go home now! |
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[Mar. 4th, 2006|05:17 pm] |
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| |  distressed | ] |
AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
...god I needed that.
*repeats the process in real life, alone somewhere*
Okay. That should keep me going for a few hours. |
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[Mar. 3rd, 2006|06:06 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Lemon Demon - The Ultimate Showdown of Ultimate Destiny | ] |
Be strong. Be strong. Be strong. Be strong. Be- *falls over, asleep*
...
This actually happened in Maths today. Clearly I'm not getting any better. Meh, I don't care anymore. I'm past caring about how well I do. If I mess it up, too freaking bad, nothing I can do about it. Might as well enjoy it though - except for the handful of ditzy female teenagers with negative IQs, my classmates rock.
Oh. And for anyone - anyone at all - who compared FF9 to FF7 and never really got into it as a result?
Each and every last one of you is inferior.
Because FF9 kicks ass, even if (in some ways) it doesn't really compare to its older brother.
Okay, that's all. |
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[Feb. 28th, 2006|03:26 pm] |
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| |  depressed | ] |
I woke up this morning and realised that my life, my attitudes, my health, everything... has changed a lot in the last year. A whole lot.
...
So why am I feeling so depressed everytime I go to tackle school...? |
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[Feb. 27th, 2006|03:42 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  scared | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Red Alert - Hell March | ] |
Oh no.
Oh freaking NO.
JENNA PHONED ME WHILE I WAS OUT. THANK GOD I WAS ACTUALLY OUT. OH MY GOD I HOPE SHE DOESN'T PHONE ME AGAIN I DON'T WANT TO SPEAK TO HER ANY MORE OH NO OH NO OH NO.
*has a panic attack and dies* |
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[Feb. 26th, 2006|01:13 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  flashbacks! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Command and Conquer - Act on Instinct | ] |
Good lord, this song is the biggest flashback into my misspent youth. Command and Conquer for the win. Who knows how many years of my pre-pubescent life I spent playing this game... good times. I need to get this game again, the only other strategy game that can compare to it is Starcraft.
This has been your post-midnight spam, courtesy of Delfeir Productions. |
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[Feb. 22nd, 2006|11:28 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  giggly | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Killer Instinct - The Instinct (Official Remix) | ] |
This song kicks ass.
Maybe I should upload it sometime. |
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[Feb. 22nd, 2006|03:59 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bouncy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Final Fantasy 7 - One-Winged Angel (Still a classic) | ] |
Mwahahaha. Kain will learn that he is out of his mind to challenge me to an RPG rush-through again. Lufia 2 completed in a good 4 days. Coupled with TAFE, injections, doctors appointments and social outings, that's damn impressive! And I beat him! I beat him by a good day's worth of play time! Ha! HA!
...okay, psychotic rant over. I so totally pwn. |
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[Feb. 21st, 2006|02:53 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | worried | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Advent Children - Divinity II | ] |
TAFE is a good place... but I'm not a good student.
...I still don't know if I'm ready for this. I sure as heck don't feel it. But I can't back out again. My parents would never forgive me, especially since it's so early in the year. So little has changed though, I still wake up feeling like I've been shot in the head, I have energy and attention span for all of four seconds, and I simply cannot focus. What to do...
I really hope I can get through this, because my body is laughing and saying otherwise. So is my mind, really. |
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[Feb. 17th, 2006|04:17 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | in pain | ] |
*deletes the unbelievably emo post that was going to be here*
Even venting like that and deleting it helps. A bit. Still hurts like a mother, though. Physical pain has nothing on your emotions. |
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[Feb. 16th, 2006|11:07 am] |
...
*unholy scream of anguish*
Hot off the press:
Here's a bit of news many game cube users was worried about. The Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess has been pushed back to November and will most likely be for revolution only.
The fact that the game keeps getting pushed back, people may start thinking Nintendo instead of Blizzard is the king of release date pushbacks.
I mean, I was getting a Revolution anyway... but... I wanted to play this game SOOOON! T_T |
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[Feb. 15th, 2006|06:55 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Advent Children - For the Reunion | ] |
Oh dear, somebody at TAFE seems to have my sexuality confused. All because I didn't appreciate them insulting homosexuals everywhere by using the word 'gay' to mean 'stupid'. Because I support something that is clearly not acceptable and not natural according to her, then that would make me 'one of them'. Even though, you know, she was listening in to my conversation with my friends James when we were discussing girlfriends. I thought TAFE was supposed to be an adult learning environment, not a gossip centre for some chatty teenager who probably failed the HSC the first time around because she was too busy networking with half the teens in the city. What an idiot. It's a good thing she's only in my Information Technology class, because at least that class is good enough to distract me.
Ahem. Rantage over.
Apart from Homophobic Bitch #1 up there, TAFE still rocks. Unlike at school, the teachers and management don't care what we do or what marks we get - schools rely on the final marks to boost their reputation and state ranking, but TAFE focuses on other different courses with the High School Diploma as an extra. So what we get doesn't matter to them, and as a result they simply teach. So if we finish our work we're free to surf the internet or play games, because we're only hurting ourselves for not doing it. Since we're still doing low-level stuff, I just finish it quickly and play Final Fantasy 9 in breaks (which I got working again, joy).
Most of the people are all friendly too, even the types that I normally wouldn't hang around with. They're all friendly and joking and generally decent people. There's a specific few who I've already developed good friendships in the past week, which is even better. It's a great place. |
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[Feb. 10th, 2006|09:56 pm] |
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| | wonderful | ] |
That was so... very... cool. Maple Story is just the best MMORPG ever. I mean... what other game could allow me to marry Blue like we just did?
That was seriously awesome. ^_^ |
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[Feb. 8th, 2006|02:44 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  annoyed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Megaman X4 - Zero Sky OC Remix | ] |
Kurses. After about a week of downloading 1.6GB of Final Fantasy 9 goodness, it freezes about 5 hours into the game every time I try to watch the FMV where they leave Dali in the airship. It's been what, 3 years since I've wanted to play this game? No amount of graphical tweaking fixes anything, it has to be my copy. This sucks.
At least TAFE continues to rock. But I'd still like to keep playing FF9. |
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[Feb. 7th, 2006|03:02 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | bouncy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Skies of Arcadia - Ramirez' Theme | ] |
I'm amazed. The last post actually worked. Awesome. I recommend that everyone does that too - call it a meme.
Right. Serious matters.
For those who are keeping tabs, my 10-month or so absence from school was abruptly ended today as I started doing my Higher School Certificate at a college called TAFE. I'll say this much - it is about a million times better than regular high schools, ESPECIALLY selective high schools where you're rubbing shoulders with geniuses... and suffering severe emotional damage and self-esteem crushing hits as a result. Here, I'm in an adult environment with people from my age to early 40's, and all of us are on a fairly standard level. I did a group task with two people who finished high school at around the same time I started... let's just say it was a big ego-boost to see myself do well amongst even those people. Great stuff, and I'm looking forward to continuing this.
Coincidentally enough, today also marks the day that Blue and I became a couple, six months ago. Still going strong and I love every minute of it. |
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[Feb. 6th, 2006|06:53 pm] |
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| | bizaare | ] |
I AM AN ATTENTION-SEEKING WHORE. PRAISE ME WITHOUT RESTRAINT! |
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[Feb. 5th, 2006|12:31 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Shadow the Hedgehog - I Am All of Me | ] |
The circle is finally nearing completion.
Give me about 40 hours of BitTorrenting and I'll, at last, possess the entire Pre-PS2 Final Fantasy series. And it will be awesome! |
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[Feb. 2nd, 2006|09:38 pm] |
This post removed because I'm a moron. My apologies to Vyctori and whoever else had to read it before. That was a very stupid and selfish act, and I really feel horrible because of it. I just wanted someone to care about my writing, since it's practically what I live for.
So I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that. |
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